I'm Sorry

Dear Self, 

I am so very sorry for treating you this way.

I am so sorry for over feeding you with all the wrong foods and filling you with bad thoughts.

I am sorry for looking at you in the mirror and hating you.

We haven't always worked well together... I believed my scars were ugly, my hair too thin, and that I was too fat in most places and too small in others...

So I starved you and forced you to exercise at extreme levels...and when that failed...I went back to feeding you the wrong foods again. Drinking too much...

I went on to hate you more and more everyday.  I blamed you for everything that was going wrong in my life and I rarely thanked you for anything.  I loathed you.

It was extremely easy for me to place blame on others or to turn the attention at our Social Media as bad influences, but with age comes wisdom and I realized that I am the one to blame.

I am truly and deeply sorry for the pain I caused you.

You are the temple I live in. You reflect who I am on the inside by my confidence, my happiness, and my health.

The way I carry you reflects who I am as a person.  I'm a good person.

I am sorry for punishing you when you have done nothing but keep me alive. 

From this day forward, I vow to take care of you as though you were my own child.

I vow to treat you with love, care, and respect.  

I vow to keep you healthy and accept you as you are at this very moment. 

Thank you for never giving up on me, even when I put you through hell and back.

I will never be able to thank you enough for putting up with me and my behaviors, but I will do my best to make it up to you by loving you each and every day.

Can you ever forgive me? 

Love Always, 

Me